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I believe in God of Trinity: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Not long ago, I just realized that there are more people believe in God than in Jesus, and among those who believe in Jesus, fewer believe in the Holy Spirit.
I want to share why I believe in the Holy Spirit. We know books about power of positive thinking, that one sets positive attitude for the things he or she wants to change, and relies on human strengths to make a difference. Although I love the positive attitude, I would never find myself overcome my weaknesses. I do not believe in positive thinking, but the Holy Spirit has to take part for change. Let me share my testimony.
In the summer of 2009, I was taking summer school in a local community college, every morning except Friday and the weekend. So I would sleep in until 10:20 am to get ready for work. Every morning I had a sense of emptiness, unproductiveness filled in my heart and I wasn't satisfied. I have had Jesus in me, but the Spirit had not dwelt in me. I wanted to wake up earlier so that I can be productive and get the most out of my life. Of course, I wanted satisfaction from Him.
My positive thinking told me I could do it, but so many mornings, I want to sleep more than spending time with God, so I turned off the alarm, and continued to sleep. Sometimes, I deliberately put my alarms away from my bed, so that I would need to get up to keep me from sleeping again. I even set multiple alarms. However, I never overcome the very positive thinking from the night before. I failed to surrender my struggles to God.
One night I was praying and asked the Holy Spirit to work with me to get up early, inspired by a prayer from "Lady in Waiting". Although I didn't think I would be like the lady who "gets up while it is still dark (Proverbs 31:15)", I set my alarm to 8 am, reasonable time for me to sleep (6-8 hours), and spend time with God. I slept peacefully that night. When I heard the alarm in the morning, I turned it off, thinking it was Friday, and I didn't have school, and working is not until 11am. Let me sleep a little more. So usually I would continue sleeping for hours, but that day was very special.
15 minutes later, I heard someone clearly calling my name: "JingJing, JingJing. Wake up! Wake up!" I saw someone standing beside my bed. And then I got up. Later I realized it was Him, the Holy Spirit didn't give up on me because I asked Him to help me. I love that 15 minutes of "grace period". God knew that I couldn't overcome my positive thinking of my own strength, and it was that exact 15 minutes showed me how amazing He was-not too short so that I knew it wasn't from the alarm, neither too long to waste our precious time.
It was definitely a time that my relationship with God glued closer. His love for me is too valuable that I cannot live without, and I know how much He loves me through his love letters � the Bible. Although I have read it for many times, He would still reveal amazing things to me when I read it in a different time. His word is living and active, His Spirit is alive. I cannot depend on my own effort and strength, I have to surrender and let Him help me. No more positive thinking without Him involves.
This is only one example of why I believe in the Holy Spirit, along with the Father and Son. I love to share more if you are interested. Contact me at [email protected]. God Bless.
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